I read a saying on one of my friends T Shirt around 6 yrs back...."Heard It.. Seen It.. Done It.. What Next"? I thought it was really pervert!..(Which might not be the case!)...But then a few yrs later i also realized something else...
...You are born...a child..a student...college life and a teenager...then you go through the normal adulthood in life...while you are studying you make so many friends..small successes...recognitions....fights....get infatuated...fall in love sometimes...sometimes, a couple of times...then graduate...get a job..marry either your love or someone else...have a career...have a blissful 2 to 3 yrs of marriage where nothing else but your life partner counts...and every moment spent seems magical with no end....then have a child...In a few months reality strikes!!!......By the time you become a parent..your parents are old till then...suddenly you are at an age when you start attending a lot of ppl getting married and starting new lives... and a lot of your parents generations parting life...At a point you lose even your own family members...theres no time to even break down coz you are someone elses support till then...then education of your children...they grow...resposibilities and more responsibilities..the same person you are married to becomes a burden and there are fights and there are struggles...you manage through all of this keeping yourself sane and your family together!..Your children become big...their college...and they get married...if you are fortunate enough then you have the company of your life partner even at a later stage...and then old age...and then what next?...Is it death?..Or is it another life?...And is all of it actually worth the entire trouble of life?.....A few of the ppl say its the way the 'life chakra is'...you come into the world and have to complete the natural cycle...You start off alone.....you run along life pretty much doing something which loses a meaning a few yrs down the line...coz at every point of time something else is 'more important' at every stage of life....at 20 you laugh at your stints of 10, at 40 you laugh at your youth...and at 60 you sometimes wonder if what you did at 40 was important at all?..Few ppl live till 80...but at 80 you are a child again....It all changes at every stage of life...
What we call life...some ppl dont even realize its come and gone by...some die at birth, some as a child...some at youth..
So what is it that man hopes for when he says i will do it the next time?Or that next time things will be better....What is the next time?....Is it even there??????????
And at any point of time, what is 'next in life ' ?...Is it love? food? money? satisfaction? shelter? career? friends? marriage? sex? family? peace? How long will you want all of this?...And if you get all of it then what next?....
What next after doing it all?...
Must of us fortunate have everything we need from the time we were small...Or maybe this is a question just for people who get it all easily..Who are born in a decent family...have parents, a good childhood,...a good career...and settled in life....
And maybe such questions come to ppl who are simply oversmart and have nothing else to do in life?...I dont know...
Another way around..
maybe this question does not arise with those ppl who are born orphans...who need love, shelter...ppl who are born handicapped...or ppl who live their whole life in order to simply get food for one time..or who have never ever had a place called home...who know that they have to search for place or sometimes abondon shame to even shit!!!...for such people there is no time to think coz their every minute is a struggle to survive....Do these ppl have a question of What Next??? Would they even want to know What Next?
SO there is a next in everyones life..But what is it?...Arent we all in search of it?....
Or am i simply just so content that i want to skip everything in life and just go next to.... (Probably to my source?)....Is that the search and that the 'next'??....... and maybe this next will be the 'Last'???
Or sometimes i feel am i making too much of it all???????????..Who Cares???? Do i need to worry at all?...Does anyone ever come to this stage in life where they feel what next?...Or am i the only one?...Or then am i just being a fake seeker of life who knows nothing and craves for everything....not content despite getting everything in life and STILL in search of the answer.... 'What Next'???
Maybe ....i dont know... just maybe...would it be right to say....that....I cry for a shoe when there are ppl with no feet!!!!
